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so, obviously i have a self-injury problem. it started in sophmore year when i was really depressed, I'd do different things to hurt myself like hitting myself to get bruises on purpose, to burning, then i started cutting. it got to the point were I'd cut at least 3 times a week.I've been cutting for a year and a half now. but im trying really hard to change i did stop for 2 and a 1/2 months at one point, but slipped once. but i really want to stop, and hopefully you guys can give me some advice on stopping. and if u want to know more about me or my past you can just ask to be added on my journal. k thx for listening. -mary
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[04 Jun 2007|07:14pm] |
ok, well i have a bad problem with cutting. I've done it for about a year now, and at one point it got really bad. I used to burn but i havn't done that for around 4 months now and i have huge burn + cut scars on my arms which are incredibly obvious. I've tried to kill myself twice. ALL the time i get the urge to cut, but my boyfriend doesn't want me too, and it almost brought him to dump me a while back. I duno what i would do without him, he always helps me but i've figured it's horrible for him to see me like this. He's had to clean my blood up a few times and it must be so damaging for a guy to have to do that. The problem is, i have to cut...but i have to keep Alex too. I get so fustrated when the urges get so bad, yet i know i can't do it - not for me but for Alex.
Sometimes, the times get so bad and i do it without him knowing, but i feel like i'm betraying him. Sometimes i cave in, but i can't tell him. I really don't know what to do, or how to stop doing it...i seriously need help ='[
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